Have you ever tried to speak on a subject that you had never personally experienced? Seven years ago I published my first book Path of the Blessing: Abraham, Issac, Jacob. Within that book I spoke briefly about death and grief, but I couldn't elaborate much because of my lack of experience. I had known my Grandmother, Great Grandmother, and an Aunt to pass away and felt some sorrow as well as a young man that I used to visit who had a rare genetic disease.
I had never truly experienced what I would describe as a great loss until now; the loss of my 19 year old daughter Taylor.
photo credit Byron Medina
The grief and sorrow that I feel from this temporary separation is at times unbearable, but then this thought breaks through my sorrow; Taylor is not lost but just separated from us until we meet again in Heaven. (I like to think of her absence as if she's away on the best vacation EVER) Our family can't wait to see her again and we have that hope because of our faith in Jesus Christ.
"Actually, I haven't lost them, because I know where they are -rather, I've lost contact with them." Heaven by Randy Alcorn
Unfortunately I now have the experience to write about death, separation and grief and that's what I want to share with you.
About a month after Taylor left for Heaven I was feeling like God couldn't really understand the depth of my heartache and sorrow from missing my girl. I don't know about you, but I grew up going to church and was taught that "Jesus has experienced every hurt or pain that we could ever experience" and so He's able to sympathize and understand our pain first hand.
The problem was that I knew nowhere in the Bible Jesus had grieved the death of his own child...in fact he never had children so that statement that I was taught wasn't helping me. Even though Jesus had experienced grief through his suffering on the cross for you and I, that just wasn't relate-able enough for me. -Just being honest here...I needed more.